Musings of a Medium

New Mantra for Me; Maybe for You Too?

2010-09-30T20:01:00.000-07:00

Hello all!

While at the Historical Spiritualist Camp, Camp Wonewoc, in Wisconsin, I learned a lot about myself. I did some dealing and healing. I did some soul searching. I opened up more spiritually and professionally. Oh, and I even helped some other people to do the same (I think)! :)

Whether you're a psychic, intuitive, healer, medium, sensitive, or any other type of spiritual person / title, maybe a new matra that I have taken on for myself will help you as well.

I used to get so nervous before readings. (Yes, even though I've done hundreds of them.) The problem was, I was so motivated to give everyone the best possible reading. I wanted to help as many people as possible and be as accurate as possible. Now, this doesn't SOUND like a problem. It's a good thing, right? Well, yes, except that I learned something very important:

One day, my guides nearly slapped me in the face with an epiphany. They told me, "STOP taking responsibility for what comes through in a reading. Stop stressing yourself out. Coming up with the information and the messages is NOT YOUR JOB! You're just the channel. you're just the messenger. You show up and do THAT job, and we'll handle the rest!"

Wow, what a lesson in surrender and letting go of ego. They were right. I took the advice and it made my days up there (doing back-to-back half our sessions) much easier. It also made me a more clear channel, and it kicked up my accuracy even more. It was so freeing to not worry about what I was going to say to people. I took on a new mantra that's been working well for me, and I'll share it with you.

One of my guides said simply, "Open your heart and let God speak." During my meditation before readings, I imagine opening little doors over my heart chakra and I affirm aloud, "I open my heart, and I let God speak."

I'm not the one speaking. I'm not the one that has to give people spiritual insight or information that will help them in their lives. That's The Universe's job. By worrying about whether what I passed along would be good enough, I was doubting my faith. I was doubting the Divine. Duh, how ridiculous! :) I was already doing well, but was so stressed out by wanting to make sure that everything was perfect and that people walked away with what they needed. By learning to surrender to the Higher Powers, I was able to be completely at peace.

People continued to walk away with what they intuitively came for, and even more, and I was able to simply enjoy the process. For this, I am truly grateful.

I just wanted to share this in case there was anyone out there that might be able to learn from it and grow to trust themselves and the Universe's messages a little more.

Love Always,

Psychic Medium GeminiRose

www.geminirose.net

My Take on Destiny vs. Free Will

2010-09-30T19:59:00.000-07:00

I received the following question in an email and thought I would include it and my response in a blog in case others have the same question. In reviewing what I wrote, I did add some more information:

QUESTION: “If you don't mind me asking a question; If nothing is written in stone and we have free will, then why does the spirit tell [us] for example "So-and-so will be married. He is the one!" Then he changes his mind. Well, isn't Spirit suppose to know ahead of time that he changed his mind? It makes me wonder if a reader perhaps can read the energy at that time only…”

MY REPLY: You are asking a SUPER intricate question, and I will do my very best to answer it. I've often thought the same thing. I do know that when we're reading psychic energy, we ARE reading how things are set to be at that moment in time. It's like taking a photograph of your future and describing the details as they are. However, free will does change things. When Spirit gives messages, during mediumship, then I'd assume that, YES, they know how it will play out. So a psychic reads the energy. A medium relays messages from outside sources. A psychic medium, like me, does both. Tricky, huh? LOL

This also brings into play the competition between free will and Destiny. I do believe that some things ARE destined to happy regardless of which road we choose to take to get there (the free will part). Some would say, “Well then that can't be free will if it's destined.” However, consider that we used our free will BEFORE we incarnated to make the decision about what our destiny WOULD BE during this lifetime. So we still had free will, it was simply exercised long before and that option may not be open anymore because we already played the free will card. So we already USED free will in that situation.

Also, sometimes (in a reading) things will feel more set in stone to me, and then I figure that whatever actions were needed to make that event happen have already been taken, and so it's going happen regardless. Whenever something feels LESS set in stone, and I feel like the ball is in one person's court or they have total control, then I have to assume that they have not yet done the actions to set the event into motion. At this point, the outcome is more easily controlled or changed, and that’s, in my opinion, the best time to get the spiritual heads-up.

If we look at it from this perspective, then it may also make it a little easier to understand why Spirit tells us some things and not others. In the case where everything is set in stone or destined, and maybe it’s best for us not to know because there’s not a THING that can be done to change the situation, perhaps Spirit will tell us nothing. Would it do any good to know that you’d be divorced from your husband in three years? Perhaps a three years that WOULD HAVE been good and filled with happy memories would instead turn into a miserable three years of stress, worry, and irritation. The only change then that COULD HAVE BEEN made, would be one that would be harmful to you. I do believe that Spirit and our Higher Selves do offer protection for us against some things in life. For the person who says, “Well, again, if Spirit withholds the information,that is interfering with our free will again.” Okay, fair enough. If that’s not how it works, then perhaps it is our Higher Selves exercising our free will by blocking the reception of such a message. Regardless of how it works, there is protection of our psyche, heart, soul, and future at play.

I even believe that we could take that a step further and say that Spirit may even refuse information based on the fact that we COULD change it, and that the outcome if we do is not in our best interest, and so it’s kept a secret so that we stay out of what’s already in the works. Lastly, consider that we are here to live life. We are here to exist as human experiencing the human experience. If we walked around every day with our plan for that day already laid out in a handy notebook full of which moves to make, which moves not to make, and every event that was on the way, how could we POSSIBLY learn anything? If we can’t learn, how can we grow as humans and evolve as souls? Remember that our spiritual evolution is the goal here. Some information may HELP the evolutionary process, ESPECIALLY if someone is opening up spiritually and energetically to God and the mysteries of the Universe, and maybe that is why some information is more easily accessible than other top-secret files! A last note here: Some things are simply more fun as surprises. Having the ALL the answers could make us miss out on incredible emotions and some of the happiest moments and surprises that await us during our human journey. (Certainly, this doesn’t mean that you won’t have a heads-up about some of those things. You’re exercising free will in asking.) Again, tricky business!

Please understand that this is only one medium’s perspective on all of this (mine). I’ve given it based on my personal beliefs and experiences. I also feel that I was guided in my answer. However, I encourage you to take what I’ve said and explore for yourselves. What do you think? More importantly, what do you FEEL? Psychism and spirituality are not an exact science. These things come to our attention and are integrated into our learning through trial and error. I encourage you to experience and learn with your heart and with your soul rather than trying to rationalize everything with the mind. Not that the mind’s analysis is a bad thing, because it’s not, but just make sure you’re getting BOTH sides of the experience, as balance is key in all things.

I hope this helps.

Love,
Gem

www.GeminiRose.net

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Best & Funniest Singing Psychic Reading EVER!!!

2010-09-30T19:57:00.000-07:00

My friend, Cliff, from Apollo Paranormal Investigations does a great job doing an impression of what a singing psychic reading on my radio show would sound like. He cracks me up!!! Check it out:

If this made you giggle as much as it does me (EVERY time I watch it), please pass it along to others. :)

Love,
Gem

Open Your Heart and Let God Speak

2010-08-20T11:34:00.000-07:00

While at the Historical Spiritualist Camp, Camp Wonewoc, in Wisconsin, I learned a lot about myself. I did some dealing and healing. I did some soul searching. I opened up more spiritually and professionally. Oh, and I even helped some other people to do the same (I think)! :)

Whether you're a psychic, intuitive, healer, medium, sensitive, or any other type of spiritual person / title, maybe a new matra that I have taken on for myself will help you as well.

I used to get so nervous before readings. (Yes, even though I've done hundreds of them.) The problem was, I was so motivated to give everyone the best possible reading. I wanted to help as many people as possible and be as accurate as possible. Now, this doesn't SOUND like a problem. It's a good thing, right? Well, yes, except that I learned something very important:

One day, my guides nearly slapped me in the face with an epiphany. They told me, "STOP taking responsibility for what comes through in a reading. Stop stressing yourself out. Coming up with the information and the messages is NOT YOUR JOB! You're just the channel. you're just the messenger. You show up and do THAT job, and we'll handle the rest!"

Wow, what a lesson in surrender and letting go of ego. They were right. I took the advice and it made my days up there (doing back-to-back half our sessions) much easier. It also made me a more clear channel, and it kicked up my accuracy even more. It was so freeing to not worry about what I was going to say to people. I took on a new mantra that's been working well for me, and I'll share it with you.

One of my guides said simply, "Open your heart and let God speak." During my meditation before readings, I imagine opening little doors over my heart chakra and I affirm aloud, "I open my heart, and I let God speak."

I'm not the one speaking. I'm not the one that has to give people spiritual insight or information that will help them in their lives. That's The Universe's job. By worrying about whether what I passed along would be good enough, I was doubting my faith. I was doubting the Divine. Duh, how ridiculous! :) I was already doing well, but was so stressed out by wanting to make sure that everything was perfect and that people walked away with what they needed. By learning to surrender to the Higher Powers, I was able to be completely at peace.

People continued to walk away with what they intuitively came for, and even more, and I was able to simply enjoy the process. For this, I am truly grateful.

I just wanted to share this in case there was anyone out there that might be able to learn from it and grow to trust themselves and the Universe's messages a little more.

Love Always,

Psychic Medium GeminiRose

www.geminirose.net

The Meaning of DEATH in Dreams

2010-07-05T20:07:00.000-07:00

The Symbolism / Meaning of Death in Dreams:

I've had several people tell me recently that they have had dreams of dying or of loved ones dying. I, myself, had a dream of my own death just a few nights ago. I know these dreams are pretty common, but I have to wonder if there is something going on astrologically or on a larger scale that is inspiring or causings these death dreams.

Anyhow, dying in a dream typically denotes the end of something or someone. However, this is rarely a literal "end." Instead, it is usually a symbolic "end." So, if you dream of your own death, you are quite possibly dreaming about the end to the "you" that you have been up until that point, or the end to a part of yourself or a phase in your life. Whenever there is death, there is rebirth. So this end to the old you or this aspect of yourself gives way to the NEW you, or part of you, that is ready to be born!

What if the death in the dream is a murder? Well, this could be interpreted to mean that the end to that person as they are, the aspect of that person (such as their unhealthy co-dependence in a relationship or denial of the spiritual self), or a certain experience is at the hands of another person. So either another person is responsible for this happening or you FEEL that another person is to blame. However, if this is a good thing causing change, then that person is really a catalyst for a positive outcome!

To give an example: A woman contact me very upset, frantic really, because she'd had a dream that her child had been murdered by a family member. I helped this woman interpret her dream to see that it was really about how she felt that this family member had forever changed her child in a way that was irreversable, (since death is final; there's no changing it). (I encouraged her to help her child take this opportunity to reinvent himself and discover his own personal beliefs and grow from/with them.)

So, quite often the death dream is viewed as a horribly terrifying experience when, in actuality, it could be a very positive message: A NEW BEGINNING! Get ready to get creative and build something new! Enjoy the experience :).

I hope this has been helpful!

Love,
Psychic Medium GeminiRose

www.GeminiRose.net
www.TheSpiritualEvolution.net
www.SpiritualEvolutionRadio.com

The Volcanic Eruption Within DOES Bring Peace...

2010-07-02T16:02:00.000-07:00

I wrote this in an email to someone and realized that there are others who feel the same types of pain, loss, and isolation. We're all here going through the same things. Hopefully this will speak to some and help them to find peace....

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...Never lose hope. As a spiritually evolved person, you know that there is rhyme and reason to EVERYTHING that you create for yourself in your lifetime. Perhaps it's time to look at the situtations you've been through and where you're at now. Can you find patterns? What seems to be the underlying theme in the trials of your life?

I'm personally going through a MAJOR healing process of my own right now too. I have to look back at the events that have brought me the most pain. I then allow myself to FEEL that pain, that anger, that sadness.... Whatever my spirit needs. (We are spiritual beings having a human experience, after all... Denying ourselves our right to experience does NO GOOD. Denial is NO GOOD all the way around, actually!) After that, I trust that it's being thrown in my face over and over again so that I'll LOOK at it. I know that I can't ignore the pain. So, we look at it and find out what's the common thread?

What do these separate events have in common? I can see several commonalities in mine. Once you've done that, then ask yourself this: "Okay, if these are the common themes, what am I supposed to learn from them? What were these events supposed to teach me? I didn't plan this pain all for nothing!" The trick is not to let the suffering be wasted. Once you can find and accept how these things have added to making you a stronger, more beautiful spirit, the pain will begin to subside and you're on the road to healing!

WARNING: The process WILL initially intensify the pain. You may find yourself digging up things you've been busily ignoring in your everyday life for years! When it comes up, it's like a volcanic eruption! However, after a volcano erupts, the fire does cool, and so will the pain. It's an intense experience that will act as a catalyst for peace within. (Hey, healing is hard work, but it's very much worth the process!) Just be aware that you're likely to become more moody, sensitive, and more easily triggered by events that remind you of your pain than before. However, at this point, you're out of denial and making progress. It won't stay that way and you'll start to feel the weight lift from you. You'll know you're headed in the right direction!

I urge you to go to the videos section [of our website- http://geminirose.ning.com] and watch the Neale Donald Walsch ones. If you only watch one, I suggest the "God Says Yes" one. (I think it was the first one added.) When I speak in my daily life, or when I'm thinking about life, or when I'm praying; I imagine what Neale talks about in his brief video. I imagine that God agrees and says "yes" to everything that I'm thinking/saying. "My life is falling apart..." and God says, "Yes, Gem, you're right. It is!" If I say, "Nothing ever goes right!" Spirit agrees, "I know.... That's true..." On the other hand, if I affirm "My life is beautiful and I'm surrounded in love", God replies, "Oh yes, you are!" "Everything always works out okay in the end..." I'll hear "Yes it does.... and it will..." It really puts things into perspective, because then I KNOW that I'm going to really GET whatever I am choosing to create at that moment.

I wish you all the very best in your travels to a more peaceful life both within yourself and in your surrounding experiences. One affects the other, and YOU create it all...

Love,
Gem

Psychic Medium GeminiRose
December 7, 2009

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The Path of the Wounded Healer

2010-06-28T20:40:00.000-07:00

Life’s wounds come in so many shapes and sizes. Some are the light scratches of the surface that represent our minor battles. Some are the painful echoes of hateful words flung in the passion of anger. Others stay with us forever as the permanent scars reminding us of victimization at the hands of another. Often there are the tears to the heart from love after love after love gone wrong. Our psyche suffers nicks to our pride and self-concept due to ridicule, unfair judgment by others, and not being accepted in some part of society. There even exist actual gaping holes due to neglect which are only filled with more emptiness from not receiving enough compassion or kindness. More wounds are then created when we attempt to fill these voids with substances and addictions that only hollow us out more. The fire of our own selfishness, hate, and fury directed at ourselves and at others leaves us with severe burns.

Every single one of us has our own wounds. We have the stories to each little cut, bruise, and blister. Some of us carry all, or at least most, of these- from the very minor to the near fatal. This is the human experience. We are meant to meet adversity, suffer, problem solve, and overcome. Without these, there can be no healing. Without healing there’s no learning, and if there’s no learning, there can be no spiritual evolvement.

Spiritual growth is the goal. Taking our collective consciousness to the next level in order to bring peace, love, and harmony to the human race is a necessity. There are many who have battled and lost. They have fought and suffered pain and grief because of it. There are those whose light shines so brightly that it makes them a target to the dark that wishes to stifle the beams meant to illuminate us all. Yet, they keep charging forward. They do not lay down the sword and shield and give in to the misery that would consume them. They do not allow their attacker’s blows to send them to the ground for long. Instead, they smile and charge forward armed with faith to carry out a mission of protecting, healing, and teaching others who have suffered as they.

This is the path of the wounded healer.

Written by:
Psychic Medium GeminiRose
September 2009

www.GeminiRose.net

Gifts of Hope and Inspiration Left by My Spirit Friends

2010-06-26T17:29:00.000-07:00

Spirit contact and all that comes with it can be interesting, inspiring and evolutionary. They touch our lives in so many unseen, and even seen, ways. Whether they come as a scent of your mother's favorite perfume, a doll that you KNOW your aunt would have loved and wants you to have, a message of love and confirmation coming through a medium, or even in symbolic tangible object with a twist of mystery- which is the case in the personal story I'm going to share.

Several weeks ago, when paranormal activity was at its peak in my life thus far, I was doing laundry in my bedroom. I was working my way through a massive heap of shirts and jeans. I felt like it would NEVER end! My mind was lost in deep thought during the process, as I often use this time to “zone out” and receive messages from whomever needs to bring them. (Hey, the process is so automatic it works really well to put me in a meditative state. What can I say???) As I tucked the last shirt away and turned around, I looked at my pillow. Lying on it was a pin that I had never seen before. I picked it up and ran my fingers over the cool metal. It’s navy blue background was the canvas for a golden bird of some type. It appeared as though the bird were gently flying through the night sky. I was puzzled as to where it came from.

I went through the house asking everyone if it was theirs. Their answers were quick “no’s”, and so I started making phone calls. It belonged to no one, and there had been very few people in my home recently. It was Memorial Day, and so I thought that perhaps this was a message from a passed spirit who had been in the military. (This may sound odd, but remember I said that during those weeks spirit activity in my home was constant. They had been messing with the air conditioner, moving around objects, and even pulling the tube running from the back of my washer OUT of the wall- twice, in fact!) I accepted it as a gift and as a message, though I didn’t know what the message was.

Days went by and I kept the pin next to my bed on the small, wooden side table that houses the other important things in life like the reading lamp and alarm clock. Though I couldn’t put my finger on the meaning, or just who left the pin, I knew it was important and that it was only a matter of time before I would fully understand. Finally, while staring at it, it hit me! The bird was a dove. I did some research and found the meanings of the dove as a totem to be very touching and pertinent to my life and its purpose.

Weeks passed, and last weekend I woke up to what I didn’t know was going to be the beginning of one of the most emotionally and mentally stressful weekends I’ve had in a LONG time. I crawled to the end of my bed to cuddle with my fluffy Russian Blue-grey cat, Booger. (Yes, his name is Booger. It’s a long story. LOL!) I gave him big kisses good morning, and put my head on his back snuggling my face into his soft fur. (I know my cat allergy people are cringing.) At that moment, my eyes fell upon a unrecognized item. The only things on the bed were me, Booger, a couple of pillows, and this tiny object. I gingerly scooped it up and examined it. In my hand perched a tiny, bright yellow foam bird- a dove.

The actions after finding this gift were much the same as before. No one claimed it, or confessed to having ever seen it for that matter. How synchronistic- the only two gifts to appear did so in the same place (my bed), they were the same color, the same size, and the same thing: a dove.

The dove is symbolic of the soul and the Holy Spirit. It’s the bringer of peace, hope, inspiration, and messages from Heaven. In Greek mythology, it was the bird of Athena, the goddess of war and wisdom, and represented new beginnings. In the flood story in the Bible, it was the same. This graceful and serene fowl is a symbol of the feminine powers of nurturance, generosity, and prophecy. The dove flies gently through the veils that separate our physical realm (Earth) from the spiritual (Heaven). He the promise of peace to the world.

As if these messages weren’t simply beautiful and awe-inspiring in their own rite, they are even more powerful when applied to my own life and spiritual path. I am passionate about trying to be all of the things that the dove represents. Brining peace, hope, and inspiration helps me to “fly”. I’ve been told in an astrological reading that one of the elements of my path is to be “the midwife to the soul”, and so the birth of new spiritual awakenings is tied to the “new beginnings”. Additionally, I am a female who strives to dig deep within her inner self to pull out as much power and courage as she possibly can, especially when faced with adversity, while doing so as peacefully as possible. Nurturing others nurtures me. The “prophecy” seems to be a given- (duh, “psychic” LOL). Finally, and most warming to my heart is the “messenger from Heaven” who slips through the veil between our dimensions in order to facilitate the communication process between the beings on either side. This eludes to the channeling and mediumship work that I do (which happens to be my favorite gift).

I am exceedingly grateful to Spirit (and the spirit friend who manifested these gifts) for the love and healing messages they have brought to me. Have I found my totem? Maybe. I’m not sure, but I do know that my path becomes clearer and clearer with each day that passes, and I am overjoyed in the knowingness that I’m RIGHT where I need to be. I’m going to successfully do my part in healing the world, as well as myself.

Thank you for allowing me to share with you.

　

In Divine Love,

GeminiRose

July 19, 2009

www.GeminiRose.net

This IS My Life - (The Moment That Started It All...)

2010-06-25T19:16:00.000-07:00

The following entry was a great and pivotal moment of personal growth and healing I experienced in the fall of 2008. It is very personal, and I hesitate to share it. However, if others can take inspiration from my revelations, then I feel it's my duty to put myself out there for that purpose. It was with this clarification from God that I began to really understand myself and my life's purpose. In that moment I picked myself up and saw a new vision of myself and my potential. I realized that I was letting life pass by while I was hungrily searching for the moments in the future ahead that would hopefully bring me the peace and joy that I so desperately needed. Essentially, I was missing out on life all together.
That very month, I launched Readings by GeminiRose and dedicated myself to the service of others. (Added June 2010.)

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I close my eyes. Silence. The comfort of the night is there- the shoulder on which I spill my tears, my wall to lean against. It helps me to provide the illusion of standing tall.

I inhale deeply and give thanks to the omniscient listeners. They are my ever-present audience. Tonight, they are the witnesses to my faith- My faith in love. My faith in happiness. My faith in life. My faith in me.

It is now that the realization comes: This is my life. How strange! All this time I thought of myself in a sort of limbo; a preparation time for the real life that is surely on its way soon... Soon... How could I be so blind? How could I have let those precious months, weeks, minutes, seconds slip through my fingers unnoticed?! I should be ashamed, but that is not the purpose of this epiphany. I'm not finding myself only to glare unforgivingly at my reflection in time's flowing waters. NO! To do so would be to sneer obnoxiously in the face of this new wisdom. I've been finally blessed with the understanding that I am meant to live these moments for what they are- mine.

I will no longer turn the pages of my life's album in hopes of finding a meaning that does not exist. I won't search for the reappearance of yesterday's saviors to carry me into the future. I am here. I am free. I am me.

This is my life! I will cherish it. I will nurture it. I will find passion in every breath and share it with those around me. I am finally comfortable in this newness- the world lies before me, and for once, I'm turned in the right direction! I embrace it all hungrily!

　
This is my life!,and I shall ignore it no longer. I offer sincere gratitude to the quiet messengers who have stood beside me and guided me to this pivotal moment. I am listening! Thank you for this invaluable revelation. I will not forsake you.

GeminiRose

Novenmber 2008

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